I know that i'am not weak, just that my determination is not there . Well, was it that i didn't put in effort to train...? Before i got enlisted into the army, i could run very well with the timing of 10.28. But now, it sucks. The first cat run, my timing was 11.28 and follow by 10.58 for the diagnosis test. I felt very disappointed....
The BMT training was suppose to be progressive, yet i didn't improve while peoples around are improving. I'am still on the same spot. i wonder was it the flu affect my performance? Even if it is, it's no excuse for me to do badly too. Other people were having coughing and flu yet they still can do well. FUCK IT!
I will be having my IPPT test tml. I'am determine to do well for it! This time round I wouldnt give up that easily! i dont wanna be a weaklings! I hate to be look down by people!
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